A Leap into Faith - Fun-ployment Week 0

So, I did something crazy.

I quit my job...

...And I don't have another job offer.

Super scary.

Which begs the question, why am I doing this? Why am I jumping off the proverbial deep end?

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In December 2018, I had a stirring in my heart. I was living in my dream city, New York, working a good job, making some friends, and dating a great guy, However, I felt like I was just surviving like I was missing a piece of me.

I found myself on my knees in a church asking God to inspire me, to give me answers, and help me live more than half a life.

Since then, I've tried to lean into every calling, such as:

• Joining a church

• Participating in small group

• Going on a missions trip

• Starting Cup of Common Grounds

• Entering a pageant

• Modeling for boutiques

• Traveling across the country

When it came to my work, I felt lost.

In college, I was so sure I was going to be an investment banker. As you all know, I did not become an investment banker. Instead, I became a consultant and stopped creating five-year plans. I was not sure where I was going in my career or if it was the one for me, but I was comfortable. So, when I was getting ideas about wanting more, about figuring out work, I stuffed those ideas down real quick.

Finally, I let go and dove in.

I asked for:

• Travel assignments

• Tours of duty in different groups

• Involvement in diversity & inclusion programs

• Interesting assignments

I did all the right things to do well in this job. And guess what?

I was good at my job.

I was knowledgeable, liked by my coworkers, requested by my clients, moderated common ground discussion, and bored.

At the end of each day, my parents, boyfriend, or friend would ask me the question I dreaded, "how was work today?"

I would always state a positive because every opportunity is a growing experience. However, I followed up the statement with, "but I did not learn anything interesting." Slowly, I came to the realization that I was moving 100 mph in a career, while prestigious and enviable, was not for me.

I tried for months to evaluate other options. To learn about additional opportunities. To talk with people with different career paths. And I reached a point where I could not keep going with my current job with its long hours and unpredictable schedule and search for another job when I did not fully know what I wanted to do with my life.

It was taking a toll on my mental health.

So, I quit.

I prioritized my mental health and my happiness.

It is scary not having a job in hand, but what is scarier to me, is staying in a job where I am not happy.

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So pray for me, while I am on my journey to find my purpose in life. As I figure things out, I will share on this blog my epiphanies, my worries, and my hope.

I know I am not alone. And I know God has an incredible plan for me.

I just need to lean in and take the leap.